day twenty three; beauty

You don't realize how beautiful the trees are, or how many different shades of green there are until you sat under an overhang for a couple hours...

Sitting, staring and sycning my breathing to hers, I held Taylor in my arms as she slept. You may think that this is just another nap, but to me

this is a learning experience. I find it interesting that the lesson in Relief Society was that we must have patience...and here I sat four two hours holding a

child in my arms with nothing to look forward to but the next breath. I think something clicked today. I'm not here for money, for the city, for bragging rights...

I'm here to help mold the outcome of these precious children. Granted I understand I'm but a small influence, but in the end both parties got to learn something.

Whether the children learn to wash their hands after eating, or to say please and thank you I know that I accomplished something that most people my age don't have

a chance to experience.

I'm here for just that. An EXPERIENCE. It's absolutely beautiful how much I can care for these children that I've been with for a mere three weeks now.

You can see how Heavenly Father blesses us when you follow your calling. I'm a woman. I'm on this Earth to help nourish the human race. I'm here to

give care and to love anything with a heart beat. I find it so grand that I have this divine purpose. I find it so interesting that just holding this child in my arms

caused me to have this purest of pure relieved feeling. I didn't have to worry if she was going to eat a coin, fall in the pool with a bucket on her head, or have a

melt down because she didn't want her swim diaper. It was just sleep. Just sleeping and breathing and twitching and dreaming.

Absolutely nothing seemed more important than just holding her there in my arms, keeping her warm and keeping still.

Moments like that just make me want to cry from the joy. So many things around me have the Spirit influencing them and I over look them everyday. It's so hard to

just be in tune with something as wonderful as the Spirit. (Well for us non-perfect-prophet types.)

Oh how beautiful this world is. Where ever you are, see the beauty in all things. It's so easy to see the dullness and mondanity of our surroundings, but so easy to

over look the wonderfullness and beauty.

Just a thought, children.

Yesterday was grand, absolutely grand. All I can say is Mini Golf, McDonalds, and Joy.