Today was great. I really needed the lesson today in Relief Society. It really opened my eyes to what I'm supposed to be doing on this planet...I'm supposed to have Christ as my center, and as my number one priority...but I find myself thinking more and more about myself and less about the Savior. It's so hard to find the perfect balance of work and play...but having the Lord as your center doesn't have to be work or play. It's just what you're supposed to be. You shouldn't consider having Christ on your mind as much as possible as work, you should consider it a blessing! That's something that is so hard for me to get in the habit of...but good things don't come so easily. I have to work as hard as I can to get myself into the groove of what I should be...it's taking me years to get myself just here, and I am far from being to where I need to be. But at least I'm on the path right?...
Anyway. Life here in Manhasset has gotten a lot less stressful...I have most of what I need to get done down to a routine, and wouldn't you know it school starts on Tuesday, so I'm going to be starting a whole new routine...haha just my luck! :) It's exciting though...during the day I'll have Taylor so I can get more house work done and the gym that I am looking into go to has a place for kids to play in while the mothers or caregivers work out for about an hour or so, so I can get healthy like I played. I am GOING to get myself to where I need to be, whether or not its now or when I move back to Utah! I am GOING to get healthy. I seriously can feel my heart stop everytime I think about eating something unhealthy...but I still do..hahaha! I'm a mess!
Anyway AGAIN. I cant tell you what has happened everyday since the last time I have written, but i can tell you that this weekend was very chill, and that I basically hang out with Jamie and Brooke every single night. I absolutely love it. I need examples like these girls in my life because it is so easy to fall off the path...I was talking to a dear friend of mine and he is so keen on me being this amazing Mormon but it is so hard when you aren't surrounded by them! I miss Utah tons, but I also looooooooooove it here. The people are different and new, and I'm different and new to them so it's nice to feel special...
I honestly can't believe that I haven't been keeping up as much as I wanted to!I promise to keep talking and writing as much as I can...I think the past few days I have been bummed out because I haven't been keeping in contact with all of my friends from home as much as I would like to! So you ALL have to keep in touch with me....well you know if you want to....hahaha
Well a little bit about the kids...everyone has pretty much gotten used to me...i still feel bad when i have to give discipline or when they think that I am the bad guy, but I have to do what I have to do to make sure they dont get hurt or anything! It's tough when the girls fight over toys or TV channels or the computer...but I get it done. Haha. I think my only issue is Grace because she's 11 and I don't think she thinks I have authority over her, because I haven't really had to show her that I'm in charge yet. Hopefully that goes over well...haha
Well. I will for sure write again tomorrow. I need to keep it up!!!
Goodnight!
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